Dear God, by Avenged Sevenfold

Dear God by Avenged Sevenfold

This is the song I listen over and over and over again.

A very deep in the meaning that I cannot ever succeed to describe.

It's enough by saying that this song, is really suiting my condition, ever, in my love life.

Because all my life, I really wish a man would sing this song to me.

A man who thinks that I am very special

A man who thinks that he is really suffered when parting from me, when he left me.

A man that never exist.

And I dont know whether he will exist, or not.

And I could just waiting in hope.. or despair.

'Dear God, the only thing I asked of you,

Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away,'

Because I am so tired of being alone.

So tired and exhausted being a punchbag.

I just wish a sincere man would come upon me, telling me he'll always be there for me

Telling me he'll always be the first I see when I wake up

And the last I see when I'm asleep

A man to make me feel so secured that hell never leave me

Or suffer if he did.
....
....
(sigh)

Should I pray again in hope?

Or should I restrain again in despair?

I dont wanto to do both

Cause sometimes I wish, that all my entire hearts is gone.

Dear God, the only thing I asked of you is to send me a man of this dream.

The one I can be rest assured with.

Love Songs Forever in My List

love

either it is love to family, friends and lovers, or rather a happy love, a 'made for each other' love, a blissful love, a one sided love, a bittersweet fighting love, a tragic forbidden love, a shattering hearts love, a heartbroken separated love or rather a terrible destroyed love.

when comes to love, everyone has got their own way of defining it.

everyone got their own way of feeling it.

everyone has their own way of dealing with it.

and much ado about it, no one can deny the power of love songs.

especially to those who really know the meaning of love. =)

as for me, love songs is a must.. to describe my love, to define my love, and to mend my heart when talking about the hardships of love.

so until now, these are among the love songs that always always in my playlist:

Over You, Learn My Lesson and Life After You - Chris Daughtry
Making Love Out of Nothing At All - Air Supply
I Live My Life For You - Firehouse
Always - Bon Jovi
I Remember You - Skid Row
Better in TIme - Leona Lewis
Here I Am- Bryan Adams
Please Forgive Me - Bryan Adams
Flying Without Wings - Westlife
This I Promise You - `Nsync
Unbreak My Heart - Tony Braxton
It Must Have Been Love - Roxxette
I Have Nothing - Whitney Houstan
It's All Coming Back To Me Now - Celine Dion
It is What It Is - Lifehouse
Speechless - Lady Gaga
When You Said Nothing At All - Ronan Keating
Best I Ever Had - Vertical Horizon
You're God - Vertical Horizon
Fix You - Coldplay
Better Man - Robbie Williams
Total Eclipse of the Heart - Air Supply
What Kind of Man Would I Be - Chicago
Don't Cry & November Rain - Guns N Roses
Your Call & Maybe - Secondhand Serenade

...and still many more....

Malay Songs otherwise;

Cuba, Hanyut & Sampai Syurga - Faizal Tahir
Perpisahan Ini - 1st Edition with Aizat
Kekal - Spider
Terasing - Sudirman Haji Arshad
Engkau Laksana Bulan - P.Ramlee
Sayang - KRU
Semalam Yang Hangat - Wings
Mungkin & Perpisahan - Anuar Zain
Renda & Sendiri Untuk Ke Mana - May
Melawan Kesepian - Siti Nurhaliza
Ketentuan - Ramlah Ram
Semua Tentang Kita - Peterpan
Cinta Dalam HAti - Ungu
Harga Diri - Wali Band
Aishiteru - Zhifilia
Dan - Sheila On 7
Menjaga Hati - Yovie & Nuno

...XXXXXX.....


Well, so many many more songs but I wont be able to list them all. what can i say is that, all songs in the list, each has a special and sentimental value upon me and my love experience. (haha. so many??)

Like Over You from Daughtry, it is really a good song for revival if you are heartbroken to be separated from your bf/gf. (it helped me, successfully :P)

N the song 'Best I Ever Had' by Vertical Horizon, believe it or not until now it still managed to make me cry. really deep in meaning and moving in the words.

P/S : so do you have your fave love song? i bet you have. =)

Bebi Ecah yang dirindui~

It's 4.30 a.m. in the morning and I havent still, go to sleep.

Just finished doing my assignment on my new international friend from Fac of Bio, Zaynab Jawaheer with my roomate aka classmate Aisya Fatihah, I just couldnt rest my eyes and head to the pillow. (well. saya tido meniarap. tett)

happy to say that my memory card for Sony Erricsson sudah boleh baca. Alhamdulillah. Luckily the virus is gone because of CCleaner. Yeay. Thanks CCleaner. Damn the data cyclic. to recycle bin u go. yeeha

back to my topic, at this point of time, i miss my lovely cutiey niece, nur aishah alisha. huhu. rindu sangat2 kt bebi ecah. the last time since we met was during the Chinese New Year. wa. about 2 months ago. huhu. :(

so this video i captured at the last time since she manja2 with me-lah. the voices in the video were mine, my mom's, my sis' and my 1st bro (ecah's daddy). huhu

happy watching~

nur aishah alisha pakei tudung. hihi.posing sakan.

ps: caca..mama rindu kamuu~

Sharing is Giving

Eh. the clock ticks at 4.09 a.m and here I am, still not getting sleepy. Duh. Tomorrow got test ma. huhu... well that's fine lah. I dug my own grave.

Well it happens to my thoughts when talking to my friend about sharing. According to him, it has four extents.

• the first, sharing is sharing. Whereby you share yours, and you get something in return. In the name of sharing purpose.
  
• the second, sharing is caring. That's what so cliche about it. You share because you care. But same thing, you share yours, got something in return. However it could not be in the same kinda thing
  
• the third, is sharing is loving which is, the quite dangerous sharing term. Well, we share because we love. of course you would like to share something for the ones you love rite.
  
• the last, he said, is loving. eh, where's the sharing gone? huhu. Well I explained more on the term 'love'. for me, the highest extent in sharing is definitely giving. When you share, you care and you love that party, you will tend to give everything. And you won't expect something in return. Won't.

And that is the best way of sharing. Share to give. not to show caring, or only loving but still expecting something in return. Sharing is giving. And this sharing is the plain care and love.

So start sharing and giving!

P.S Ever felt like giving up everything? I had.

ever love someone till it hurts so much?

ever felt so much in love with someone?

i bet all of us have. at least, the sweating crush among us all. sape tak penah jatoh ati betul tak. no matter how old u are, it is just we dont wanna admit it. sama ada suka minat, suka sayang, suka cinta or suka sebab dia care pada kita, stiap org ada sebab untuk sayang dan cinta kan seseorang lain tanpa perlu ada sebab.

for me, ive grown in love. so much love showered me through all my environment. i also often fell in love. it doesnt require any reason to love someone. when u saw him in distance, and when u heard ur heart throbbing, u tried to avoid facing him but yet, your eyes still giving eye (curik2 tgok) him, dat's the proof telling you are in love. :)

but it is really love that is everything? do you love and tend to risk everything for this kinda love? do u even believe u can spend the rest of your life with him?

u cud have fallen in love for so many times. for example, a distant love that makes your heart crashed when he asked for clash just because of the distance reason...apparently he has someone else...

then u cud have fell in love with ur own besfren but he didnt tell u his feeling, not until u decided to accept another man's love.. it's that love also? well. so sad but true.

n u could have also falling upon someone that is forbidden. he has all the charm u dreamt of. but it is really wrong to be feeling that way. n most importantly, he did feel the same with u. but u guys cannot be together because of so many reasons.

let me tell u somethin. love isnt just sharing love, giving love, spending some time together. love is something beyond our mind. to love is to let go. soemtimes love cannot conquer everything, but destiny does. forget about the romeo & juliet tale. it doesnt happen these days.

to love and to be loved back, is of course wonderful. especially when that someone is a prominent person, handsome, has so many great features of him, fully adored by so many people. it just like a dream come true. but think again. Can i have a wonderful life with him in later life? quoting Tan Sri P. Ramlee, "Engkau laksana bulan, tinggi di atas kayangan," I cud never reach him. too good to be true. (Sigh)

Well, this is what i meant to love someone till it hurts so much. you love him but you cannot get him to be yours. love is complex. love is like water. it can change its shape whenever it gets into different shape of things. huhu. i think dat is my own definition of love...:)